Saturday, December 13, 2014
Friday, December 12, 2014
Yup. The picture above is a good representation of how I've felt the last couple of weeks. A bit rough. A bit nervous. Ragged....but still a little sexy....right? RIGHT????? (My poor girlfriend Jen has to put up with me walking around with my bed head in public sometimes. God love her!!!)
Anyway, I get scans every three months to check to see if the cancer has returned to my liver or lungs. The last two clean scans have been clean and it's been so wonderful being cancer free......and then the next scheduled scan started getting closer....and closer. I've had a positive attitude through my cancer fight, but I always try to remain realistic also. I know cancer returns to so many people. It was hard to watch from afar as lovely Diem Brown passed away after heroically battling cancer time and time again. Stories like hers always remind me of how fragile life is. And no matter how much a person is a warrior, like Diem was....cancer sometimes wins.
So I braced myself for today's scan results. Ok.....if it is in my liver maybe I'll have to do this. Ok.....if it is in my lungs, maybe I'll have to do this. If I have to do chemo, maybe I'll have to do this. Blah blah blah.
My scans were clean. I'm still cancer free. It's hard to describe what I high I feel getting that news. Amazing relief and wonderful feelings. Until about 2 and a half months from now, when I will start to steel myself again for possible bad news. Life is funny. I love life. I love you guys.
Tom Petty was right. The waiting is the hardest part...... What? He wasn't talking about waiting for scan results? ;)
Fighting Cancer Isn't Sexy